Adevăruri efemere

George, petreci prea mult gândindu-te la zilele trecute și regizându-ți prezentul, tânjind după discuții profunde și gesturi intime din partea oricărei persoane care îți vorbește sau care îți răspunde mai repede, sperând că aceea va vrea să îți deschidă ușa viitorului ei.

Când ea va fi disponibilă, ia-o de mână și trage-o în brațele tale, sa isi așeze capul pieptul tău, apoi lasă ca in tacerea camerei sa auda bataile inimii tale care se liniștește. Mangaie-o pe cap si spune-i lucruri adevărate invat-o sa gaseasca pace in sufletul ei, iar cand te va întreba de ce tii la ea, sa ii spui ca "dintr-un interes profund si o bucurie sfanta" de-ai fi aproape in orice clipa. Poate, poate vei primi ceea ce iti doresti: o persoana alaturi de care sa iti creezi un viitor. Nu trebuie neapărat sa fie ea, cea care iti sta in brate, pentru că poate a doua zi aceasta va inceta sa îți vorbeasca, dar tu fi fericit pentru ca ai avut un moment de sinceritate cu tine si ai sadit in pamantul vietii tale semintele unei recolte bogate, ce va fi sa vina doar daca vei avea rabdare si vei lucra spre folosul ei.

Suntem intr-o constanta căutare de suflete care sa fie binecuvantate de prezența noastră si alaturi de care sa devenim mai puternici. Daca nu am mai construi ziduri ci am contrui poduri intre noi, poate am avea mai mult curaj sa ne ștergem lacrimile si am înceta să mai credem in adevaruri efemere.

Coffee with God

I want to go out for a coffee with God.
I want to sit and listen to His side of the story, as everyone here accuses Him of being absent or they deny His existence.
I want to thank Him for all He's done and will do for me and loved ones.
I want to chat with Him about all known issues and how to prevent the unknown ones.
I want a hug from Him and advices for a better life.
I want to continue meeting with Him in person from time to time.
It would be great!

About weddings

Getting through the week is sometimes challenging. My Spanish teacher used to say that if Monday is gone, the whole week is gone.
I love Mondays and Friday evening feels like a mini-holiday.

There are few more weeks until my sister is getting married in Church and I can't wait for that day to finish with smiles and blessings from Above.

Not long ago I didn't believe in the institution of marriage, but once I read the laws and what God gives to and expects from the couple, I realized that is a celebration and official statement of what should already be there: love.
I'm not keen of big weddings, that are very expensive, because I seen no point in waisting £50-150k for just one day, when you could use that money to buy a mortgage.

My kind of wedding is on a Friday afternoon, just few hours before the sunset, in the mountains next to a lake, where the couple shares stories about their love and plans of the future, what they're hopeing to achieve together and how everyone present will have the responsibility to help them achieve their goals.

Wedding shouldn't be a statement of wealth, but more of an expression of love and identity of the couple. If your wedding is kitsch, is because you are so.

There is no point in having 300 guests that you don't know, but 20 that mean the world to you.

Couples should always seek to have both religious and legal communion.

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When you're a child, is hard to imagine that your parents had their separate ways before you were born. The world started when you took your first breath of air, and angels commissioned by your parents, gathered to welcome you singing their songs of praise and happiness. Soon the magic started to fade, as you gained knowledge and you became the person you are today.

Even though knowledge is not something that you can grasp, is far more valuable than money. Your looks will fade and your body will fail, but knowledge remains and can be gained and shared infinitely.

What would you choose between 50 million Euros or all available knowledge?

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TheEverday is an opportunity to do more and as long as you're breathing, you still have a chance to change your life for the better.

Some people say this blog depresses them, others love it and quite a few find it interesting. Spend some time here and decide for yourself.

I started writing in English because of my international friends, whom I love and respect very much. Wish I could have a cup of coffee with you all today!

I believe in science and God, because one explains what the other can't do it in words. They complete each other.

I've said it and I'll say it again: having the right kind of people next to you is a blessing.

Admitting your faults can sometimes work against you, but it takes courage to do so. One of my weaknesses is getting up early in the morning. I'm not a morning person, so I need 3 alarms to wake up.

There was a time in my life when I used to be late to every appointment or date that I've had, but being annoyed by the other people being late. Now I've changed and I like to be on time and I really appreciate when I don't have to chase the other person 50 times by text/call to confirm a date/appointment.

I have people that I look up to. I have people that I admire. I have people that I don't like, but I don't hate them. I don't have idols and I'm not into sports, music or grouping. I don't have preferred things or colours that I can't live without; I just like stuff that is good, well made, great priced and makes me feel better.

I believe that a great partner completes  you and doesn't want to change you because feels that you're enough. A good partner will want to build a strong team of two so you can rule the world together. Of course looks are important! Of course money are important, but not in the way people think that money bring you the happiness and way of life that will compensate for feeling unwanted or unloved.

Know your God

Most people who dream about Heaven and a New Earth have no ideea what it mean. They want to escape this grey world to a heaven where gold is everywhere and life is peaceful and bliss. Most of their reasons are selfish, and they think that one can get there by doing good deeds, or by not eating meat or by going to bed at 9 pm or by bombing 50 infidels.

What if you get there, but God is missing?
What if you don't even care who's there, as long as you're there and you have no more wars, hunger or pain?
A heaven without God doesn't sound like heaven at all. More like Bali, Swisserland or any other perfect place where money bring you everything you could possibly want. Heaven is where God is. It can be anywhere, as long as He's there with you.

You have to be responsible and disciplined with yourself in order to be able to help others, and since this an ongoing process, it's always the right time to be kind and care for those around you.
Start with what you have and you can build on it. Do everything you can now, and as long as you're breathing you have a chance of knowing more and more about God.

The only way to go to heaven is by having a person connection with Him. And that is grace. Prayer is a talk, a chat between you and your heavenly father. You don't need to spend hundreds of hours on your knees, because He is everywhere and loads of conversations can happen between you two throughout the day. Even now.
Let's pray!

London and days of terror (617)

I don't know about you, but I miss a lot of people and a lot of places from back home. Yes, I miss Romania, but there's not much to do as Landscape Architect because people don't understand the need for consultancy or proper design for the outdoors.

I'm going to stay in England as long as I can, but this terror attacks and Brexit don't make it easy at all...

Just 1h before yesterday's attacks I've crossed London Bridge with my cousin and we were looking for a place to park near Borough Market and walk adound there, but all parking spots were full and rain started so we decided to go home.

I trust in God and I know He's in control and keeps us safe. A lot of people blame God for allowing people to die in violent situations or in hunger, or innocent childrens to die of AIDS or cancer... I don't have yet a proper answer to explain why He allows it, but when I do, I'll share it with you. If you could see the bigger picture, without emotions of feelings involved... Zoom out a bit and you might get your answer.

"Yeah, but it's easy to trust God when you live in a nice house where you have food to eat and you're healthy!" Guys, EACH OF US has periods of time when we'd be better off dead than alive, but God is good enough to keep us alive and strong to see the end of days, when we'll have answers​ for all our questions. As long as you breathe, you can still change your life and know your God.

I can tell that my life wasn't always easy, but He is here for me and helps me see the whole picture, and walks step by step beside me. I'm praying for all of us.

Midlife crisis

When you're a teenager, you imagine life at a level that makes you dream big about making a difference, with personal happiness and noble achievements. You are genuine about your thoughts and you embrace your uniqueness, so you start living according to your hopes and dreams.

Then you get to your late 20 or early 30, you start realising that your dream life is different from your reality.

You look at your high school or university colleagues and see happy families with kids, pets and trips around the world. But you got nothing like that.

You try talking to your friends and they keep bragging about their accomplishments and money. But you got nothing like that.

You feel betrayed and unhappy, so you want to give up. You feel like not having made the most of your future.

Your needs are different.

You want inner peace and a clean conscience, and this can't be bought...

Life is never as expected.

People will always disappointed you and you will always need some time off reality.

The key is to learn living with your mistakes and failures. And you got Heaven's help on that.

You must love and accept yourself as you are so you can be able to help others and love them as the total disasters they are.

Make the most of your life, as it is! You can do this!

Another you

We do a lot of stupid stuff because we don't know how to cope with reality. We are crazy enough to think we are entitled to act like headless chickens, as if the world should give us a free pass just because we're in love.

Existence seems cruel when you can't get what you want.

In love we tend to aim too high, promising forever love and endless hugs, but we all end up empty inside and with wet faces.

Being fed up with life is also one of the signs that you don't know what love is. More and more people post their edited love stories on the walls they've built to separate themselves from the peasants, and once the loved one is gone, their cruel existence is trapped between cold and coloured walls.

You're sitting with your eyes open in front of the mirror hoping to catch a glimpse of your dead soul, and looking for another you. Now that your past ended and you've let go of all that was holding you back, you can start behaving like the person you wanted to be and needed when you were younger.

Punch hard and steady

-Where are you?
- In a hotel, in Romania. What's going on?
- I'm dying.
- Aren't we all?
- I mean like now.
- What happened?
- She left me! he starts to cry.
- What?!? But you were engaged...
- She packed her bags and left 10 minutes ago. She cheated on me man! Oh.. And now she's moving in with that bastard! 
- Wow!
- For almost 2 months she cheated on me and I didn't even realised it! Man, I don't know what to do anymore! I feel like punching someone... and... uhm... man, I'm dying! I can't take this!
- You've been here before, so try to calm down. You need to control yourself and have a clear mind. Can you go swim?
- I don't know...
- I know it's Easter time and all might be closed, but go to the gym and swim for couple of hours. Then go upstairs and bunch those bags. Let your anger there and hit hard and steady, as if you're fighting for your life.
- I can't...
- Yes you can! You have to!
- She cheated on me...
- And now you have to let go of her and control yourself. You're gonna get over it in no time if you stay focused on your future.
- Easier said than done.
- I know you've got this!
- How do you know?
- Don't ask stupid questions. I have to go now. I'm waited downstairs.
- Ok, go. Everyone is leaving me.
- Man, focus! Don't let your emotions control your actions. Stay strong. I'll text later to check on you. Bye now.

Home visit

2nd night home and I can't sleep. Why?

A lot of memories go through my head. They remind me of my beginnings and I can see how far God has taken me and how I became a man. I grew up so much and I say: "Thank you Father for giving me the strength and wisdom to get here. Thank you for my family. Please keep me healthy so I can do more!"

Trust more.

Help more.

Be more!

Tall

I love being tall and I wish people would stop treating us like we're the smaller sibling of the giraffe.

Everytime I see a tall person (above 6'4") I keep falling in love with myself and this amazing gift from God. As a child I remember praying "Please help me grow up and stand tall like a mountain" and He was kind enough to listen to that innocent prayer.

Being 6'6" (198cm) is hard only when it comes to:
- clothes: only couple of brands have acceptable apparel;
- shoes: only few brands make size 13.5 UK (48);
- ladies: even though I might love a 5'4" she might find it awkward to date a poplar;
- cars: I love Porsche or Mini, but chances of me ever owning one are zero;
- low level ceiling: a real problem;
- regular airplane seats: I hate those bastards!
- bed: anything below king size is a struggle. But I got used to sleeping with my feets out of the bed...

I could moan about a lot more, but I get used to designers not having giraffes in mind when they work on a new product, and I always find a work-around.

Stand tall brothers and sisters!

The Sun, the Planets and The Universe

My dear friend,

If you are a star, then you are the Sun. If you are the Sun, then your kids are the planets revolving around you. If you are the Sun and your kids are the planets, then your lovely wife is the Universe that makes everything happen.

God bless you!

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Sa ajungi la varsta in care sa nu stii ce vrei...

Sa fi incercat toate slujbele disponibile si sa realizezi ca nimic nu iti place, dar ai cateva domenii in care poti excela, desi inima ta nu ar fi acolo.

Sa fi iubit femei din toate colțurile țării si sa fi descoperit ca drama si pasiunea sunt omniprezente, pentru ca ne fac sa ne simțim în viață. Intr-un cuplu, nu sexul este cel mai intim, pentru ca este doar un proces tehnic, ci vulnerabilitatea de a sta dezbrăcat de tine si la îndemână celui care sta inaintea ta, care te poate rani inimaginabil, care te poate pretui ca pe opera de arta sau te poate imbraca in iubirea lui.

Increderea este ca un baraj pe care rabdarea il umple cu dragoste. Barajul fisurat se poate repara, dar e costisitor si necesita multa voință. Daca nu, increderea se distruge complet. De aceea foarte multi se simt secati si goi cand dragostea dispare.

Multi dintre cei care primesc o promovare la locul de munca, se bucura enorm la gandul ca vor reusi sa schimbe lumea, dar cand încep să lucreze și să întâmpine greutatile functiei, se gândesc cu jind la zilele de dinainte și își doresc sa le fie mai usor.

Progresul doare. Cresterea te face sa suferi. Dezvoltarea ne stoarce lacrimile. Motivația e de unica folosință, pentru ca apoi intervine vointa de a continua procesul de dezvoltare.

Primavara

In scoala generala, oracolul era foarte popular si ma hotarasem sa imi si eu unul ca sa aflu daca fata de care imi placea, ma simpatizeaza. Imi amintesc cum Aida, o colega, m-am invatat cum ce intrebari trebuie sa pun ca sa primesc raspunsul dorit. Asa ca intr-o zi, mi-am luat inima in dinti si i-am dat Anei oracolul.
In liceu am incercat sa tin un jurnal si imi amintesc ca imi treceam activitatile zilnice intr-o agenda pe care o primisem de la mama.
Anii au trecut si acele cuvinte au ramas pierdute pe niste foi ratacite in debara. Multe dintre aceste amintiri s-au uitat.

Ador primavara. Este anotimpul meu preferat. In facultate am fost invatati sa nu avem lucruri preferate, dar nu ma pot abtine: ADOR PRIMAVARA! O iubesc! As vrea sa fie primavara tot anul.

cate doua cuvinte

pierdem oameni
pierdem vieti
pierdem amintiri
pierdem nadejde
pierim surzi
ramanem nuzi
visam deloc
credem nimic
ucidem dimineti
crapam nopti
negam viitorul

Am inteles ca vrei sa pleci din tara

Stiu ca esti indragostit de Romania, o iubesti ca un adolescent si plangi zi si noapte pentru ca nu iti mai vezi rostul alaturi de ea. Ti-ai imaginat viitorul altfel. Cand erai copil mic si visai sa cresti mare, nu credeai ca vei apuca sa traiesti astfel de timpuri pline de egoism, coruptie si drama. Ce viitor e asta, in care societatea sa iti dea papucii cu prima ocazie? Te gandesti ca e mai bine sa emigrezi intr-o tara in care sa lupti cu folos si care iti ofera prospecte de crestere.

In noaptea de 1 ianuarie 2012 am inceput sa imi fac bagajul si aveam de gand sa plec in Germania. Eram complet dezamagit de Romania, de sistemul social-politic si ma simteam tradat de tara mea. Toate astea s-au sincronizat cu o relatie esuata, asa ma simteam ca o oala sub presiune. Aveam un prieten care dimineata avea sa plece cu masina spre Munchen si a spus ca ma poate tine la el o luna-doua, dar pentru ca nu vorbeam germana, mi-ar fi fost tare greu sa ma descurc mai apoi. M-am rugat toata noapte pentru calauzire si in cele din urma am adormit epuizat. M-am trezit dupa cateva ore, cu o duzina de apeluri pierdute si mesaje de la amicul meu, care ma anunta ca nu m-a mai putut astepta si a trebuit sa plece. Am avut o discutie cu mama si i-am spus intentiile mele si m-a sfatuit sa plec in Anglia, la Mihaela. Sora mea avea la acel moment, un an de cand plecase din Romania. In aprilie mi-am luat bilet spre UK si pe 5 mai am zburat spre Londra.
Asa am ajuns sa plec si eu din tara mea, dupa o lunga perioada de deceptii financiare si profesionale. In mai fac 5 ani. CINCI! Ma simt batran...
2012 a fost un an teribil. Nu am plecat cu contract, nu am venit pentru un job sigur, deci am venit la plesneală. Am riscat. Imi amintesc ca nu aveam drept de munca decat cu Yellow Card si munceam la negru ca zugrav cate 14-16h/zi ca sa imi pot plati facturile si sa traiesc. Dadeam cu trafaletul intr-un hotel de langa Hyde Park si plangeam de ciuda... Dar Dumnezeu mi-a purtat de grija si fiecare an ce a trecut am devenit mai puternic si parca mi-a fost mai usor. Inca nu stiu daca a fost cea mai buna decizie sa plec din tara, dar stiu ca m-a maturizat foarte mult si m-a schimbat.

Probabil ca te gandesti sa pleci din Romania, din tara ta, din casa ta, din familia ta. Cand pleci, nu te mai uiti inapoi. Uiti trecutul si mergi inainte, indiferent ce urmeaza. Poate ai un partener in strainatate sau poate ai un membru al familiei care te poate ajuta sa te adaptezi. Sau poate nu ai pe nimeni. Daca iti imaginezi ca in afara e mai usor, gresesti. Iti trebuie mult curaj, credinta si tupeu. Trebuie sa crezi ca Dumnezeu va fi cu tine, indiferent unde vei pleca si sa crezi in tine si in viitorul tau.
Iti recomand sa te documentezi cu privire la tara in care vrei sa te muti si sa iti cauti o slujba inainte sa iti iei biletul de avion. E bine sa pleci avand un job asigurat, pentru ca vei evita astfel sa pierzi timp cautand de munca, consumandu-ti economiile pe niste treburi pe care le puteai fi putut face inca din tara. Inainte sa pleci, asigura-te ca ai lasat totul in regula si/sau ti-ai inchis toate activitatile care te-ar putea opri din drumul tau, sau care te-ar putea urmari si afecta pe viitor (credite, datorii, facturi neplatite etc).
Daca emigrarea ar fi usoara, toata lumea ar face-o. Sunt foarte multe probleme care trebuie luate in calcul. Trebuie sa fii tare si increzator ca Tata Domnul e cu tine in toate si ca, mai tarziu, cand te vei uita in urma, vei vedea cat ai crescut si vei fi multumitor Cerului ca ai avut o viață frumoasă.
Iti doresc succes in tot ce faci, indiferent ca ramai in Romania sau ca pleci!

We are all the same

We are all the same: we are born and we die. Everything in between is just made of knowledge, emotions and deeds/acts.

Sa cunosti

Caută să cunoști o persoană în toate dintre următoarelor ipostaze:
- când e nervoasă și certată cu tine;
- când are un moment de maximă vulnerabilitate și dependență de tine;
- când e înfometată bine;
- când e nedormită și e obosită foc;
- când e în centrul atenției și e foarte fericită;
- când e tristă și ignorată de toată lumea;
- când are opțiuni și tu ești doar una dintre ele;

Volum maxim

Si sunetul zguduie usile masinii... Si sunt timid... Si tu esti blanda... Am dat la maxim volumul gemetelor tale si am inchis ochii. Aud batai in geam si nu-mi pasa. Mi-ai incalzit imaginatia si plang de fericire. Acum e liniste, dar imi aud bataile inimii. Termin apelul, ma dau jos din masina si o inchid, zambesc vecinilor si ma duc la somn. E ora potrivita sa-mi incalzesti si patul.